Anyone Thirsty? Part One
It's really hard to put into words what I am feeling right now. A lot has changed in the past 10 minutes as I have been thinking. Having to go to CTA almost directly after wrestling really gets to me sometimes. I ask myself: Why am I doing these worldly things. And you know what really sucks? I just remembered that I said I would make empanadas (Spanish food) for extra credit to bring class tomorrow and I didn't. I really needed these points because I have a 65% in that class. Sometimes things like that just build up on me. Its almost like I want to go to heaven right now and escape everything. But it will never be like that. I know that I want to live my life to the fullest and serve god in every way I can. But it contradicts its self. If god wants us to be happy then why doesn't he save us from this world? And why do we get caught up in worldly things like sports and money and school? Well, I know that god wants to use me to make a difference. And I want that too but its just so hard sometimes. It would be a lot easier if I didn't have activities planed until 9:30. Or if I didn't promise to make food for a class. It would just be amazing if I could be closer to god. Raising my hands and worshiping him, reading the bible every day, spreading his word to everyone, everything like that. I wish that it would happen right now, not at a big retreat like Big Stuf or a life changing vision. Now. But it all comes down to faith. Do you really believe? Do you believe that he is watching over us right now? Do you trust him with your life? Would you die for him right now. The problem is that we would all want to say yes to all these things but we can't. I know that I couldn't die for him right now. This is how god shows us his love. God is just so amazing to me and I want more.
Anyone Thirsty?
Anyone Thirsty?
3 comments:
if you don't get it by Big Stuf, you freaking will. Seriously. Big Stuf is indescribably amazing in about every way... if you don't get it by then, you will.
I feel like that a lot of the time, too -- like I just want to go to heaven now.
hey paul felt like that all the time and here are his words from philippians.."21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me." hang in there
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